I didn't plan to leave it so long...

Just over a month since I last checked into the reflection room. A few things on my mind. so I'll split it into three parts. Planning (this one), Maths, and reading.

Term three, Year one, has been a funny (strange) one in that I feel like I've kind of been chasing my tail. I think it comes down to not having my own clear plan of not-so-much where I'm heading (leaning objectives of unit) but more the in between stages of learning experiences. This is particularly in relation to topic related studies. Maybe it's because I've been focusing still on trying to get a handle on how to structure my math programme - which seems to consume a lot of my time at the moment?

Maybe it's just that I've been unplanned. Either way, I need to take a serious look at how to have a clearer overview of learning experiences over a few-weeks period if I am to feel that I have a more effective programme overall.

Pleasantly Surprised

I was pleasantly surprised come Monday the first day of Term 3. I was so excited to see 'my kids' again, and be back in the classroom. It had nothing to do with feeling prepared, or planned, or ready to take on the new term - it was just a real nice feeling to be back with the team that make up Room 3.

It put a spring in my step and a song in my heart. Yeah mushy and feel good I know - but I liked it and want to keep the feeling.

Oh, and by the way, I made sure I let the kids know I was truly happy to see them again. Very important to do so I think (shortly followed by my short spiel on how this term is definitely the heads-down-bums-up term where they can make some real progress on their personal goals in focussed learning).

:-)

Term Three Start Up

Just noticed it's been a few weeks. My last note mentioned my sore wisdom tooth. Well today I'm getting it out. Making use of my holidays :-)

As I look to my initial planning for this term I'm thinking...

• I'm one quarter through my provisional registration (thanks Raewyn)

• I think things may in fact possibly get less overwhelming (maybe coming to the end side of the 'new baby, things will settle in after a few weeks' stage

• Each term sees me restructuring my timetable format for maths and reading (this time maths I feel a bit better about, just need to still make some independent resources to support the programme)

• Reading - I want to develop some routines for individual conferencing, both to help students think more about their own learning, and for me to keep better track of where they're at.

Mr Grumpy

I was a bit grumpy today. I have a wisdom tooth that's causing me a bit of grief. Wise or not, I explained to the students that I was a bit under the weather, and to be aware that that may make me tend to be a bit open to grumpiness.

Some may say we need to rise above our own ailments, but I was thinking that if we need to be clear about learning, maybe being clear about our own feelings and possible consequences and choices we need to make in relation to them. I am not a regular grump, so I'm sure this 'rare' occasion is worth discussing openly with children for them to see that I too need to make appropriate decisions about my response to situations I find myself in.

The other thing though that added to my grumpiness is that I am currently completing PROBE assessments on each individual student. It is my first time - and very labourious. Hopfully things will improve as I do more.

Juggling

As a combination of reflecting on how teaching and learning is going, as well a variety of professional development courses I've attended recently, I find the desire to implement new ideas (requiring creation of class resources) comes up against day-to-day preparation time.

So, what specifically? I want to put together some box resources for my maths groups to help in organising a better-functioning rotation of learning experiences. I need to have a range of practice activities that can be attempted independently and hopefully match with current learning going on in the teaching group sessions.

What is lacking is a single resource point that links with the Numeracy Project and is suitable for independent work - particularly in knowledge maintenance. The closest thing I've found so far is a support material PDF that is suitable for students working with number properties (ie. they don't require the use of materials or imaging to understand the problem to work out). This particular booklet links to Books 5 and 6 (Add/Sub, Mult/Div).

I guess the only approach at this stage is a 'bit-by-bit' accumulation of materials and hopefully next year will see me a step ahead?

Different Perspectives

I had an observation of my teaching today during a writing lesson. The focus was interaction with children. Overall the feedback was very positive.

• great questioning
• supportive manner with children
• clear learning outcomes expressed
• links with prior learning made
• whole class, group, and individual interactions
• good wait times for attention and answers
• dealing appropriately with distractions
• children's input/sharing encouraged - leading to further learning

So I should feel good about it, and in terms of the observation focus, I am. However, I found myself inwardly frustrated with the progress of the lesson itself.

Yesterday's lesson was focussed on 'planning for writing an informal letter' Today's was to be 'drafting an informal letter using a plan'. I was discouraged by the small number of students who had completed their plan from yesterday.

I am unsure whether it is lack of focussed work habits or just that I expected too much? But really, I don't think I expected too much. So, one could say I could have collected all the books in to check progress - fair enough, but that can't be done everyday (I had feed back in writing the day prior).

So where to from here? Maybe it's a combination of continuing to give clear direction and learning intentions with the added and continual positive sharing of expectations in regard to quality work and good work habits.

Don't forget - Pat on the back

I've had a few people ask me if I'm enjoying my work at the moment - and I'm actually finding it a difficult question to answer. I'm not disliking it, it's just that things are quite overwhelming at times that I don't seem to take time to focus on the good stuff that's happening. There's always things that can be improved, and more-so when starting out.

One thing I've been down-playing to myself is getting involved in doing out-of-the-ordinary stuff, some of the cool things I'd like to give a go and integrate with my teaching. The reason behind it is that I want to get some good solid foundations right - particulalry in the key areas of maths and literacy. However, like I stated earlier, things can always be improved, so when is the time to start implementing the extra bells and whistles? Something for me to tamper with this term possibly.

One thing is the possibility of producing podcasts relating to the learning going on in our classroom. We had some great group presentations on the last day of term for our science topic on estuary eco-systems. I think, if I get moving pretty soon, put something together with some of my students to record their learning for others (such as parents, students, teachers) to view.

Anyway, back to the difficultly of answering 'am I enjoying it'. I have to give myself a pat on the back, believe it when people say I'm doing a good job and take time to reflect on and celebrate my successes, rather than only reflecting on improvements I need to make.

Pat, pat, pat - there you go Rob!

Another First

So, Term 1 is complete. I'm looking forward to Term 2, and the opportunity to refine my teaching practice. A couple of aims for this coming term should be

1. My maths programme, and having a more progressive weekly plan that meets the assessed needs of each group.
   
2. A routine way of ensuring I monitor each student's ongoing written work for the purpose of formative assessment - particularly in reading and writing.

Documenting Reflective Thoughts

I begin this post with a comment to anyone - if anyone else is reading this. A this point my blog will most likely take a change in audience, and therefore writing style. The audience is myself, and therefore the writing possibly disjointed and brief comments rather than in-depth explanations. In fact, spelling and grammar are not a focus, more-so is the documentation of my thoughts at the time. So, if you happen across this place, feel free to dip in and view. Just be aware, I am writing to myself (is that considered crazy like talking to yourself? I guess not, or else everyone who keeps a personal diary is crazy!).

It's end of week 7. I have not written a reflection since week one. I still feel that I'm just one step ahead of myself. This'll be enough to survive a relatively positive year, but not enough, I think, to get to the end of the year and feel truly satisfied with myself.

Ideology and reality are constant tensions, but often we need extreme ideals to move us out of a complacent reality. I can do better than I am. I can plan further ahead. I can try to experiment with ideas. I can, I can, I can.

I don't like the feeling of being just one step ahead, one day in front planned. It doesn't give me time to indulge in creative and ideal thoughts about improving my teaching.

Plan simple to allow time to think ahead? Reality tries to slip in and reminds me that even simple planning is time-consuming at the moment. My release days seem to fly past with not much substantial [planning] gain.

I think I need to jot my thoughts down more regularly. It's therapy. Seven weeks is way too long. Too many things to think about now. OK, fresh leaf. Start from now. It's like the value of taking just 5 minutes in the morning to pray/meditate. It doesn't often give you grand 'enlightenment' for the day, but is definitely good for the soul and keeps your spirit in the sky while feet on the ground!

Here's to time for reflecting! "Planning is everything, The Plan is nothing."

First week reflection

So here we are, first day completed and first week (albiet three days) completed. Not only did I survive but I feel at home in my own class and am enjoying the group of students that make up 'room 3'.

What went well?
Despite the build up of anxiety over the previous weeks, the sense that I have 'no resources', beginning to think ahead to next week already... all my planning worked out and we began, bit by bit, setting up our routines (Some of which I begin to implement as the need becomes apparent).

It's kind of like getting used to a new pair of shoes rather than trying to fit someone elses. There are aspects that feel quite uncomfortable, but at least I know that with more 'wear' the shoes will fit so much better than me trying to be someone else.

The other thing I've realised is that now I'm in-the-thick-of-it, it's not so bad as some of my previous fears. And even though many had said it'd be alright, it's kind of like when you have a newborn child and people say "just wait about six weeks and things will begin to get a lot better" - true advice, but not really of much help when you're in the 'shock - this is a reality that I'm not sure of yet' stage.

Where to next?
Well, it took me weeks to get ready for the first three days, now I've got a day to get ready for next week (yes I am in on Sunday). The next difficulty I'm facing is starting to put in place group planning for reading. I have sorted some groups based on previous PAT results, but now need to get some things underway that will last more than one day. My one consulation that keeps my fears down is that last week turned out ok having been planned. And once that specific plan is in place, then things become much clearer.

So today's goal is to break things down into parts, prioritise, and get the planning completed (I think I'm getting better at making lists now?). Look at that timetable and take one bite at a time. Next week's reflection will be able to report on my success.

Freak Rating Downsized

As at the end of today I have now been able to set up my classroom's physical layout (after long delays with the cleaners) and have had my first syndicate planning meeting. These two things have assisted greatly in reducing my anxiety. Particularly the planning meeting because now, as a newbie, I am clearer about what planning will be done as a team, and what by me. Basically comes down to a clearer indication that both term overview & long-term unit plans will be mostly sorted for/alongside me, which leaves me to implement that into my daily plan. Kind of normal really, but for a while there I was feeling like I'd have to prepare a lot more of my own complete unit plans.

A teacher-only day tomorrow with some professional development around reading programmes. Then on Friday it'll be back to checking/altering my list of priorities and making sure I have a specific and clear plan for the first couple of days and all resources ready - then we'll move forward from there.

I think the excitement is coming back!

Officially Freaked

Well here we are, one and a half weeks to go and I am now officially freaked out. The closer I get, the less I feel prepared. There seems to be so much planning to do and too many gaps. I'm finding it difficult to get a solid start, other than picking at bits and pieces.

So here's my upcoming strategy... Make lists, prioritise, and complete each one at a time. Hope it works and I begin feeling a bit better.

Keys in hand, that's a start

Well I now have my own classroom key, to my own classroom, that I will set out my own way, ready for 29 students who will see me as their own teacher.

It's Christmas and New Year celebration time (and in Southern Hemisphere New Zealand, that means school's out for six weeks for the summer holidays). People are off relaxing and so should I - having just finished three years of fulltime study and awaiting a new first-day-of-school on 7 February 2007.

But of course, I have big things on my mind, and the dilemma is how do I tackle my current anxieties about being prepared? Should I push them aside and do nothing until about the 2nd week of January when I go in and shuffle desks around as a kind of 'first step personal initiation ceremony' and then allow myself to be fully focussed on the task at hand of preparing and planning for those first fews days, weeks, term... or do I begin now.

So much of me wants to get in and get started now, but when I step back from my worries, I realise that there's a lot I can't actually do until closer to the time - particularly in regards to syndicate planning.

More than that though, I think I have an ideological debate going on within my own head. As much as I am committed to this vocation of teaching, I don't want it to consume my whole life. I'm a married man, with kids, and other interests. So often I hear people talk about the overwhelming task of being a teacher and the extra hours put in. But you know, I think it is possible to be an effective teacher and have a life.

One thing I don't want to do is create bad work habits from the start. This is one reason I don't want to start my teaching building a routine of spending too much time at school. Yeah, I know, I'm a beginning teacher and many things will take me longer than one of experience. But you see, I'm determined to make this work without it taking over - which only means I'll need to learn to be efficient very quickly!

Well, we'll see whether I'm right (and capable) as time goes by. Note though, I am not a slacker and I always remember what my Dad said "If a job's worth doing, it's worth doing properly". And a proper job I intend to do. I'm working with something very precious, as I'm certain the parents of the children of Mr Ashcroft's Room 3 will testify.

Got It!

Next year I am officially a teacher at Kauri Park School. I start in February and will be teaching a year 5/6 class.

I am so stoked. This is the job I really wanted. There was one other job I had applied for, and had been offered a position, but after some serious consideration I turned down the offer last week. Possibly a bit of a risk, but the right decision at the time I thought - and it turns out so.

Interestingly (and against statistical trends) the syndicate of four teachers that I will be working with will be made up of three male teachers and one female. Quite rare at primary schooling.

Now the job uncertainty is over – the real thing is on its way. Arrrrgh – I’m both excited and nervous at the same time. It’s going to be great!

This is the one I want

Got the call this morning. I've been short listed and have an interview on Saturday morning. I'm pretty stoked about it - and hope that it's not too long before I find out if I have the job. It'd make a wonderful birthday present!

I'm still to hear back from my first interview with another school. Most likely that will come tomorrow. I'm fairly sure I don't want to work there, but you never know. If they're willing for me to hold off on making a decision so that I can do a school visit and observe some teaching going on (and hang out in the staffroom at morning tea - a great place to get the 'feel' of a school environment), then that'd be nice.

But really, the job I want is at the school where I have an interview on Saturday. More details to come about that when I find out.