First week reflection

So here we are, first day completed and first week (albiet three days) completed. Not only did I survive but I feel at home in my own class and am enjoying the group of students that make up 'room 3'.

What went well?
Despite the build up of anxiety over the previous weeks, the sense that I have 'no resources', beginning to think ahead to next week already... all my planning worked out and we began, bit by bit, setting up our routines (Some of which I begin to implement as the need becomes apparent).

It's kind of like getting used to a new pair of shoes rather than trying to fit someone elses. There are aspects that feel quite uncomfortable, but at least I know that with more 'wear' the shoes will fit so much better than me trying to be someone else.

The other thing I've realised is that now I'm in-the-thick-of-it, it's not so bad as some of my previous fears. And even though many had said it'd be alright, it's kind of like when you have a newborn child and people say "just wait about six weeks and things will begin to get a lot better" - true advice, but not really of much help when you're in the 'shock - this is a reality that I'm not sure of yet' stage.

Where to next?
Well, it took me weeks to get ready for the first three days, now I've got a day to get ready for next week (yes I am in on Sunday). The next difficulty I'm facing is starting to put in place group planning for reading. I have sorted some groups based on previous PAT results, but now need to get some things underway that will last more than one day. My one consulation that keeps my fears down is that last week turned out ok having been planned. And once that specific plan is in place, then things become much clearer.

So today's goal is to break things down into parts, prioritise, and get the planning completed (I think I'm getting better at making lists now?). Look at that timetable and take one bite at a time. Next week's reflection will be able to report on my success.

Freak Rating Downsized

As at the end of today I have now been able to set up my classroom's physical layout (after long delays with the cleaners) and have had my first syndicate planning meeting. These two things have assisted greatly in reducing my anxiety. Particularly the planning meeting because now, as a newbie, I am clearer about what planning will be done as a team, and what by me. Basically comes down to a clearer indication that both term overview & long-term unit plans will be mostly sorted for/alongside me, which leaves me to implement that into my daily plan. Kind of normal really, but for a while there I was feeling like I'd have to prepare a lot more of my own complete unit plans.

A teacher-only day tomorrow with some professional development around reading programmes. Then on Friday it'll be back to checking/altering my list of priorities and making sure I have a specific and clear plan for the first couple of days and all resources ready - then we'll move forward from there.

I think the excitement is coming back!

Officially Freaked

Well here we are, one and a half weeks to go and I am now officially freaked out. The closer I get, the less I feel prepared. There seems to be so much planning to do and too many gaps. I'm finding it difficult to get a solid start, other than picking at bits and pieces.

So here's my upcoming strategy... Make lists, prioritise, and complete each one at a time. Hope it works and I begin feeling a bit better.

Keys in hand, that's a start

Well I now have my own classroom key, to my own classroom, that I will set out my own way, ready for 29 students who will see me as their own teacher.

It's Christmas and New Year celebration time (and in Southern Hemisphere New Zealand, that means school's out for six weeks for the summer holidays). People are off relaxing and so should I - having just finished three years of fulltime study and awaiting a new first-day-of-school on 7 February 2007.

But of course, I have big things on my mind, and the dilemma is how do I tackle my current anxieties about being prepared? Should I push them aside and do nothing until about the 2nd week of January when I go in and shuffle desks around as a kind of 'first step personal initiation ceremony' and then allow myself to be fully focussed on the task at hand of preparing and planning for those first fews days, weeks, term... or do I begin now.

So much of me wants to get in and get started now, but when I step back from my worries, I realise that there's a lot I can't actually do until closer to the time - particularly in regards to syndicate planning.

More than that though, I think I have an ideological debate going on within my own head. As much as I am committed to this vocation of teaching, I don't want it to consume my whole life. I'm a married man, with kids, and other interests. So often I hear people talk about the overwhelming task of being a teacher and the extra hours put in. But you know, I think it is possible to be an effective teacher and have a life.

One thing I don't want to do is create bad work habits from the start. This is one reason I don't want to start my teaching building a routine of spending too much time at school. Yeah, I know, I'm a beginning teacher and many things will take me longer than one of experience. But you see, I'm determined to make this work without it taking over - which only means I'll need to learn to be efficient very quickly!

Well, we'll see whether I'm right (and capable) as time goes by. Note though, I am not a slacker and I always remember what my Dad said "If a job's worth doing, it's worth doing properly". And a proper job I intend to do. I'm working with something very precious, as I'm certain the parents of the children of Mr Ashcroft's Room 3 will testify.